On Angels & Miracles; A Beach Story

Written Feb 26,2022

ON ANGELS & MIRACLES….

This morning we went to the beach early.

Like, sweatshirts and coats early.

My son was cold and I needed exercise so I got up and started running, playing with the dog and my son got off the chair and followed.

We were laughing and running around the empty beach and he said he wanted to go, so we started walking back toward our chairs.

He said, “Mom, did you say earlier that you’d seen a whole conch shell?” He’s been on the lookout for a conch shell.

“No, I said I saw a big whole grey shell.” (The kind that looks like a fan.) But I didn’t pick it up because he doesn’t care about whole shells like that.

“Oh,” he said, and then the dog started darting down the beach acting SUPER ODD. She doesn’t stray from us, but she was going at least 75 yards and then turning around and doing the same thing in the other direction, super fast like a greyhound, nonstop.

We stood and laughed and my son said, “WHAT?! What is she doing!?” And I felt the feeling of the animal showing us something, the animal being aware of something we weren’t aware of, and I encouraged him to stand, watch her, and wait. We stood facing the dog and the water where she charged back and forth at the shoreline.

When we turned around to get our chairs, there was a grey & white conch ON HIS CHAIR. 🐶🐚✨

“What!?! Did you do this?!” he exclaimed.

No, of course I hadn’t.

“No,” I said laughing.

“HOW?!” he demanded, totally elated. “HOW!?”

“Who knows!” I said.

A gift.

That was clear.

A miracle, even.

He said, “Honestly I don’t feel like this can be real right now.”

Tears naturally came to my eyes. If there is a distinct feeling of angels nearby, I felt it then.

Maybe someone we didn’t see walking by gifted my son what he wanted all week.

Or, maybe…. miracles are real.

What do you think, are miracles real? 😉🌟🌊

Reclaiming Feminine Nourishment: Soul Medicine & Healing the Mother Wound

That’s when I saw a large replica of my womb and stomach like a chamber, and it was stuffed with hardened sticks, logs, pieces of furniture, tables and chairs. It was like an uncomfortable nest. Who knows how long it had been sitting there – these things I’d taken in that had never nourished me at all. How could they? 

One of my two cats will choose love and touch over food. She was feral as a kitten and she’s learned to trust my hands. As I dish out the high quality cat food and sit it in front of her, she’ll follow my hands if I walk away. She’ll opt for touch over food. So I stand beside her so she can eat without alarm. 

A fetus or gestating mammal in utero can sense the mood of the mother, and reacts to it from the time it’s just a few-celled zygote. If the mother has any kind of barrier – like stress, or fear about there being enough resources, or doubts about wanting an unplanned pregnancy – the fetus feels it and this creates what’s called a “nourishment barrier” that the living thing will likely take with them throughout their lives. 

It’s like that strange feeling that you weren’t wanted as much as your siblings, or you somehow caused your mother’s stress but you can’t find any earthly reason for it. 

Recently, I left an appointment and found a voicemail from my best friend in college, who I hadn’t talked to in a few years. I realized how deeply I missed her, and a few other relationships that I hadn’t nurtured, and then that in perfect combination with the effects of the appointment, I went home and had a three hour psycho-somatic integration period, like I was remembering something profound. 

That “something” seemed to be nurturance.  

I reached out to these friends and said things like, “I’m sorry, when my life became difficult, I self-isolated. I miss you. I love you. Let’s connect.”

My therapist calls this “reaching.” People with nourishment barriers have a hard time “reaching” for what we want or need.  We act like we’ve got it all under control. We go without. We ignore the alarms as they sound. 

There’s an end of the road to that, I imagine, whether forced or chosen. 

I sort of cracked open two days later at a fire circle, speaking about this inherited tendency that my mother had modeled for me to always appear strong and independent, to resist asking for help. As I spoke this, my body started to leak tears, my voice caught, and I began to quiver a bit – sure signs of loss of control – and I let it happen as I said I was opting now for nourishment and connection. Again, I reached. 

In response, the elder Grandmother of the circle asked me if I’d lay down on my back beside the fire. Always up for a soul experience, I said of course I’d do this. 

She asked one man to drum and a woman to sing and she began putting her hands on my face. The way she moved her hands let me know she could feel the tension that I hold on the left side of my face and body. 

She invited other women to touch and nourish me, and soon everyone in the circle was signing and I was crying, aware that it was one of the most beautiful things to have ever happened to me, yet I couldn’t fully integrate it in that moment. I tried to take in the touch, especially, as it was so generous and I didn’t realize how much I needed it. She asked me to flip from my back to my stomach, and I was aware of the closeness of my belly to the Earth. 

Recently I did a “regression” journey back to the womb of my mother, as I wondered what it felt like to be in her womb, given the magnitude of nourishment barrier I have carried. As a child, I wasn’t nurtured very much at all – I don’t remember being held or comforted when I was upset. I wasn’t allowed to ask for things I wanted. I got the sense I annoyed her very much. As a little one, I stopped “reaching” early on. When I regressed into the womb in meditation, it felt like something akin to fire in the cells and neurons. Something like chemical poisoning and I couldn’t escape the heat. 

Lately I’ve been closely tracking what my body wants as nourishment – for food, for rest, for comfort. It wants to play with clay, to eat warm squash soup and fall foods, to dance to my “eros” playlist, to journal much more than usual, to find no problem in anything. 

When I try to come up, to find reason, to reengage and make something new happen, she pulls me back down and in. 

I’m aware that if I don’t do this now, there is no other time.

About a week after the fire circle, I woke at dawn deeply tucked into the layers of my bed on a chilly fall morning. 

The Inner Earth Grandmothers of the Heartland reached out to me. I said in connection and gratitude, as I always do, “I Am Here.” 

They invited me into their council chamber. They invited me to lay down, with my head in a lap, similar to what happened beside the fire. 

First they told me to lay on my back. They asked me to pair with the frequency of the inside of their Earthly chamber. My breathing slowed as I matched what they were offering. 

They encouraged me to roll over onto my stomach and press my belly onto the Earth, again the same thing that had happened next to the fire. 

That’s when I saw a large replica of my womb and stomach like a chamber, and it was stuffed with hardened sticks, logs, pieces of furniture, tables and chairs. It was like an uncomfortable nest that had been swallowed and undigested into this space. Who knows how long it had been sitting there – these things I’d taken in that had never nourished me at all. How could they? 

Things to fill a space that I couldn’t absorb for nourishment. 

The Grandmothers and I removed each piece, one by one, until my internal chamber was just Earth again. And then the biome properly reestablished itself as Earth and dirt into this space once again. 

After that I could breathe more deeply. 

As I began to stir, the cats knew that meant it was time for their breakfast. And so I went and stood beside the cat, so she could eat in peace, and know that she is not alone.

**You are also not alone. We need one another on our journeys of reclamation and soul. Reach out for 1:1 support and multidimensional healing today.

Returning to the thriving nature of the feminine.

This is where we collectively (in our “empowerment”) point to men as the “takers,” and while there is certainly plenty of evidence that men can act as takers, if we don’t fully understand the feminine principle, and there is a planet-wide reversal, then why do angry women expect men to fully understand how to heal this reversal and deliver it to women? That’s a little strange, don’t you think?

There is a force at play on the feminine principle on this planet that is inherently consumptive.

When I say “the feminine principle,” I mean the feminine in all things – woman, man, earth, children, animals… everything. Another way to say it would be “feminine energy.”

I think back to my father as a child. I was the oldest of three daughters and while we experienced a lot of provision and effort from my father, it was apparent to me in a felt-sense that he deeply hated the feminine.

There is a simultaneous longing for what is feminine, and also a willingness to consume or destroy it.

Isn’t that fascinating?

That’s called a “reversal.”

And we have a planet-wide reversal of what “feminine” or “mother” represents.

And so every woman, if she’s honest and if she’s able to slow down for a moment, can likely feel a sense of fear somewhere in her gut that is pervasive.

Consistent.

This is the fear of being consumed. The fear of the feminine principle in you being consumed.

By what?

Great question.

This is where we collectively (in our “empowerment”) point to men as the “takers,” and while there is certainly plenty of evidence that men can act as takers, if we don’t fully understand the feminine principle, and there is a planet-wide reversal, then why do angry women expect men to fully understand how to heal this reversal and deliver it to women? That’s a little strange, don’t you think?

I think it would start at home – in us. In my remembering and action as a woman, I can heal my participation in any reversal of feminine consumptive patterning.

So I had a life-long fear that I traced to my father, because in his hatred and also his alter-ego darkness, there was plenty for me to fear as a child and young woman about being consumed, being taken from, being manipulated and brainwashed. The fear ran really, really deep.

But my mother was also super instrumental in forcing me to place my child for adoption, she denied her own daughter’s reports of abuse, and she would spend money on making things look good, but to my memory never expressed true generosity with money when I was in need.

These are examples of pretty severe reversal patterns – from both genders. From both mother and father. So the reversals are not just perpetuated by men.

Also you can sense in my examples that both had to do with my body, my children, my creation/sexual energy, and also my resources. *All of the above are affected by the consumptive patterning at play on the feminine.

When women want to stop incessantly consuming, stop keeping up with societal pressures, when we want to just “quit” the ridiculousness of always spinning our wheels and feeling exhausted, what we are really wanting to do is to heal the feminine principle in our lives.

We want to heal the fear of not having enough, the constant fear of being taken from, and we want to live in peace. We want things to be naturally abundant. We get this crazy notion that we may even be able to thrive! 😉

What we want is to heal the reversal currents.

How we do this is to return to our organic nature. We literally create a new energy pattern in our lives.

One way to think about this is to think, “In what ways am I behaving because society / family told me to, and in what ways do I naturally intuit I want to use my energy?” Then do that. What you intuit is most likely coming from your organic nature.

It is through us that these patterns correct. It’s not something that society will do for us, because why would it? The current structures of power certainly benefit from feminine exhaustion, so I don’t presume the change would come from outside. It comes from within, from our direct remembrance of what is good, right, fair, and just and then living in accordance with that.

Truth be told, there are vast energetic networks that have kept the feminine energy, or feminine principle, both entrapped and available for consumption for a long, long time. It’s worked out for some – like my parents – who played the games as they were laid out, who amassed wealth, and who are willing to sacrifice children, love, and decency in order to maintain that wealth. It has not worked out for others, and for many of us, we are not choosing it.

I do not choose for my feminine principle to be continually exhausted in a reversal/inverted pattern that is a net-deficit game on my life force.

I do not choose for my feminine principle to be consumed.

And I do not choose it for this beautiful planet or the children coming into it.

Do you?

In Heartland, we examine this truth of feminine consumption – both how the patterns play out on women, and also how we participate. When we have this information, we can begin the process of extricating ourselves from reversal currents and instead become a part of becoming what I call the “regenerative feminine” on the planet.

With great soul potential…

About a year ago, I was standing at a pot-luck in a conversation with a man who is a local shaman.

We were talking about the “next level” of our soul’s path and whether or not we were making progress.

Honestly, at the time, I didn’t feel that I was making adequate progress. Things got hard there for a minute.

I was telling him how, when I first had made the huge leap from a steady paycheck to becoming an entrepreneur, I was almost magically financially supported.

My career in education ended sort of badly and abruptly, with that extra “nudge” us soul-folks know happens when we drag our feet, and when I learned that I was going to have to leave sooner than later, I heard a message out of the blue that said, “Go refinance your house right now.”

It was SO clear and loud that I went to the bank that day. I had my employer sign my income verification about 24 hours before it would have been too late, and as a result, I had a $45,000 cushion when I was pushed out the door and into “spiritual entrepreneurship.”

I told this local shaman that story, and I told him how now I didn’t seem to be getting large sums of $45,000 or anything even close to that, and he laughed and said, “Because now it’s up to you.”

I knew what he was talking about, but it’s taken me a bit longer to really embody it.

The person who we are when we make a big leap is someone incredible! And then, we have to keep leaping! Our faith has to stay strong!

Recently, I’m learning two of those “soul lessons,” which are connected, and so I thought I’d share with you.

ONE: With great soul potential comes great responsibility.

So you’re a light-worker, an intuitive, a mystic, an artist who channels… YOU ARE A VERY SPECIAL PERSON. Great.

Now that we recognize that, what are we going to do about it? I think this recognition takes all but a holy moment, but if you’re like me, you want the recognition to last and last.

Spirit/God was like, “Yeah girl! Leap! Here’s $45K!” but why, if I don’t advance on my soul journey, would God be like, “Here, just have some more and more and more until you decide to keep going for it.” That’s like a God trust fund, which doesn’t actually feel good.

We have to continue to be an energetic match for that which we want to receive.

I’m not who I was five years ago, so I can stop expecting Spirit to treat me like it did five years ago.

TWO: When we’re waiting on God, often God is waiting on us.

So obviously these go hand in hand.

Part two of this is that while we’re waiting around for God to drop in another $45K, all pouty about why it’s not happening like that, we’re actually playing smaller than God knows that we are.

(When I say God, I’m saying Mother Father God, the 12D+ Unity force of Creation, btw.)

Recently I realized that I felt a wee bit abandoned by this Creational force. And then I realized, “Oh, God’s waiting on me to grow up and be the version of me that I now actually am.”

I was on this communal prayer call, and I thought, “I’m going to speak up for my prayer. Dang it – I’m going to do it. I never just say what I need. Here I go. I’m doing it!”

And then what happened was that it wasn’t spoken by the folks holding the call, which was *perfect* and hilarious. I went for a walk in the woods afterwards and was questioning God, a little sulky, and the message was, “Because you don’t need that! Every ball is in your court, Sarah! We’re waiting on you.”

That’s a reality check for you!

When it’s not happening for you, it may be because you are not actually being all you were sent here on Earth to be.

So, let’s check our inner victim and our inner pouty-pants, and let’s ask ourselves “Given who I am and the mission my soul is on in this lifetime, what is mine to do in this moment?”

And then we do it. Without the hand-hold, we do it. We leap into our next soul assignment, our next version of who we are meant to be and embody.

We acknowledge the responsibility of being all we came to be. And the beautiful, incredible opportunity to actually be it.

Spirit will meet us there, no question.

To the leap!

In love,
Sarah

The “other” dominator.

What is that invisible force that takes and depletes feminine life force? When it comes through men, it can be a dominator masculine, or something else, a bit harder to detect but familiar nonetheless.

We are in a time of trying to figure out what healthy feminine and masculine energies look like, what dominator culture is and is not, and how to heal the rift between men and women. 

Well, at least I hope we’re trying to heal. I do believe that we can absolutely rehabilitate and heal  our human family and the spaces between men and women, and by writing things so plainly as I am here, my intention is to provide understanding in order to provide pathways for healing.

Many women, as we wake up to “patriarchy” having taken something from us, in turn have adverse reactions toward men and masculine. 

Are men patriarchal? 

Are men dominators? 

Is masculinity synonymous with patriarchy? 

Is masculinity and “domination” the same thing? 

And so on. 

I think it’s important to consciously pull apart our assumptions about all of the above. 

“Man” is not “dominator”

In this post, I am not going to thoroughly go through what “man” and “masculine” are, as I do that elsewhere and it’s not the exact point of today’s post. The point of this post is to say that while we are aware of “dominator culture,” there is another force that I’m not seeing anyone really talk about, which is taking from the feminine just as much (if not more?) than domination. 

I will say that there are most certainly “conscious” and “unconscious” aspects of “masculine” as an archetype, as well as “masculinity” as an expression of the masculine archetype. Today’s masculinity does not truly represent conscious expression of the masculine archetype, something that culture would be very well served to investigate. 

When I refer to “masculine” I am referring to the archetypal masculine, not the existing cultural expression of masculinity. 

When we think of “masculinity” as the cultural expression, that is where we start to get confused about whether masculinity is synonymous with “domination” or dominator culture. 

Men and unconscious masculine archetypal expression have been used as pawns in a dominator culture, but this is not one and the same with the potential or archetypal expression of the conscious masculine, or conscious masculinity. 

Domination is a power play, it directly takes energy, and is a negative force. Many men over time have acted out domination over women, but that does not make all men dominators. Many men are specifically trying very hard not to be dominators. 

The “other” dominator.

Many men are even attempting to step away from cultural associations with “masculinity” because of the association with “domination.” For example, a man may decide to never show any rise in emotion or anger for fear that he may appear to someone as dominating. In this way, when a man cuts himself off from the full scope of his expression, he also is not embracing a fully conscious masculine archetype. Because in this example, a conscious masculine would seek appropriate outlets for big energy to move, such as swinging an ax in the woods and building something, working out really hard, or going to a men’s circle where full expression is safe. So we don’t want to cut off healthy expressions of masculine energy for fear of slipping into domination. 

Thanks, men, for trying to avoid domination. But I’ve got to tell you, there is something nearly just as bad that is happening all the time

This prolific element that I have noticed in our culture, especially in men trying hard not to be dominators, is when shadow-masculine becomes a “siphoning force” rather than a “dominating force.” 

I see this in these same men who have denounced domination, yet still are lost as to what a healthy relationship with the feminine looks like, and they are looking to satiate their feminine longing, as well as prove their softness, as well as (unconsciously) seek feminine nurturance via a woman. 

Siphoning forces are nearly as bad as dominator forces. They are prolific, they deplete women, and they are sometimes harder to name. 

Hence, I’m naming it. 

Siphoning forces play out in some of the following behaviors from men: 

  • A man wants to have sex with a woman without fully committing to her.
  • Polyamory and other excuses for men to have sex with multiple women. 
  • Men seeking to prove their self worth by being “good.” In this case he is trying so hard to not be a dominator that he is weakening his masculinity and looking for reassurance that he is good.
  • A man who deeply seeks the love of Mother and looks for it in partners. (See resources for the Mother Wound here.)
  • Men with unresolved wounds from ex spouses, mothers of their children, or their own mother who want to, again, prove they are good and have that proven from their current partners.
  • Men who are unable to structure a relationship with a woman and want to come in and out of her life, home, and body. 
  • Men who are saying, “Look, I’m providing, now please give me what I want.” 
  • Men who are performing for her love, attention, sex. 

In each of these examples (or variations of them you can relate to), there is an invisible siphoning force. In every one of the examples, what the man is unconsciously trying to “get to” is deep feminine energy, or Mothering energy, or said differently, The Mother. As in, a deep unconscious longing for a relationship with the Eternal Mother or Divine Feminine. 

The what? 

Exactly. The very fact that we don’t really have a cultural place or words for this within “patriarchy” is a huge contributing factor to the problem. We don’t even know what we’re missing. 

Women can’t explain why they’re tired after sex or why they just aren’t turned on by their nice-guy husband – it’s because relating to him is actually leaking life force. 

Nearly every woman (and man) can tell you the experience of a man needing her to “mother him” and how off-putting that eventually becomes. The impact of a man seeking this energy via a woman is a net loss in her life force. 

Why? Because he is taking something invisible. That’s why I’m using the word “siphoning.” 

Moving beyond unintentional feminine siphoning.

So what does it look like when a consciously masculine MAN moves beyond this? When a man is NOT siphoning off her feminine life force and essence, what does that look like? 

This is the good part.

  • When he enters her body, he is doing it in service to her. 
  • He has a sense of his God-connection. When he enters her body or her life, he is in service to bringing that God-consciousness to her. 
  • He is aware that when he shows up in this way, he amplifies the feminine. He actually receives MORE feminine essence, not via siphoning, but via enjoyment, getting to bask in her expression, getting to experience the fullness of the true feminine essence. 
  • He is aware that it is via his Source/God connection and expression that the feminine is able to create more life. So he is in service to feminine creation. 
  • He is aware that when he “seeds” a woman – with an idea, with his attention, with his sperm – that he is bringing forward a God-force into her. Therefore he does it with his heart’s intention, his consciousness, and his full responsibility. 
  • He is in full service to the feminine. He is not a doormat. He is in right-relationship with the feminine aspect of God/Creation and he serves that. He knows that he is a human vessel in service to Creation via the feminine on earth. More than just trying to avoid being a dominator himself, he actually works to serve the rehabilitation of the feminine on the planet in a post-dominator society. 
  • He is aware of all of these things whether or not he is actively in relationship, as a leader, as a member of society – all the time. 

This is a deep inner journey for men and requires men to go beyond just denouncing patriarchal domination and other “nice guy” strategies. The “nice guy” can actually be quite dangerous to the feminine and to women in his docile nature that does not enable him to actually run the frequency of Masculine Consciousness through himself, therefore further depleting the feminine on the planet. 

As a starter, men, imagine the force of the Sun coursing through you. Imagine that YOU ARE light, and that this light is consciousness itself. Then ask yourself what this Consciousness would be in service to. Why does the light or the sun shine, warm, and radiate light on the planet? In order to seed Life, of course. 

That is what you are. Thank you for your continued dedication to your journey of embodied masculinity and rightful partnership with the conscious feminine on the planet. 

Private coaching is available for men & couples as well as women. It is my honor to be of service as we all heal patterns of separation and live in more love!

The Grandmothers Came Forward. Ancient wisdom for the modern feminine.

In a time of personal depletion, when another relationship had failed, a league of Grandmothers came forward with a blessing for all of us.

When Heartland came to me, I was living on a piece of land that I’d been invited to live on by a man I was in a relationship with. 

When he told me (long story short) that I’d have to leave again, no warning, after asking me and my child to move in and “make a life with him,” I was completely blindsided, but also… not. 

This sort of thing had happened before. 

Investing in the masculine with my feminine resources, wanting to receive goodness and be in a conscious relationship, and hoping that through it all, my prosperity would actually amplify rather than life being harder for it. 

But my prosperity was depleting. Overall, as I had invested myself into these relationships, my overall resources- including financial – were depleting. 

I fell to my knees on this sacred piece of earth that I’d been living on for the last eight months. I had been working with this one area of the land that felt like a divine portal of energy, and I was learning through direct intuition and listening to the land the reality of the feminine currents in the earth, the ley lines, and how we all are rehabilitating the feminine on earth together. 

And as I was in this awakening, my resources were attacked. It was no accident. As I was getting stronger in some ways, it was like some invisible force was going to make sure that I didn’t get too far ahead. 

What this meant for my finances, my relationship with my son, my living situation, my ability to focus on my business – the overall cost of this situation and the depletion was going to set me back. One more thing to deal with. I felt like my usual strength was waning. 

I fell to my knees on wet Earth and I think my forehead even laid on the ground. I was beyond being “over it.” I don’t remember exactly what my prayer was, but it was something like, “Why?” and from the depth of my soul. 

Answered Prayer:

And in that moment, droves of Grandmothers came forward. I had never seen anything like it. They showed up to answer the question so deep within me. 

Some were indigenous people of the land, some were grandmothers of my own lineage, others were clearly star beings and had different body shapes, some were made of light. Some carried their crafts and others reached out to me. 

They all came forward. 

They cried, they wailed, they banged drums. They made sounds on behalf of the Earth and they gave me these messages. They said, “Remember, the Earth knows this depletion. The Earth knows what it is to be taken advantage of. Every day while living on this land, you listen to the machines in the nearby quarry, you feel the rape of the land. You know that there is a sacred transit of feminine energy running through this land and you know that the quarry is at war for it. You know this and you are not wrong. 

“And She is tired. The Earth is tired. The feminine has been tired. We women know your tiredness. We women know the loss of resources to men, to the White Man and consumption, to this way of being that people have that is not sacred, is not the Holy way of being a man. We cry with you. We grieve with you. We know. We see you. Sister, we see you.” 

They stood before me and acknowledged, with great empathy and solidarity, the ancient depletion of the feminine that I was experiencing in real time. In that moment, the acknowledgement was so deep. 

They gave me Heartland:

They let me know that they were going to help me, but that I was also responsible for sharing this with others. They gave me 8 specific teachings, they called this “Heartland,” and for the last two and a half years, I have been gestating and integrating the Heartland into my life. 

Or rather, I have been allowing for the integration of my life into Heartland. Because that’s really what the invitation is – to advance the lives of women beyond feminine depletion, to go to a place that is so inherently regenerative, and to learn that we can access this “place” all of the time. 

Heartland is a codex for the New Earth. I don’t love using those words, because they sound so flashy, but truthfully, that is what Heartland is. 

I’ve taught Heartland twice, over 8 weeks both times. This year, we will be slowing down this journey to truly activate the teachings at the cellular level and to allow for lives to truly advance. We meet twice a month for energetic alchemy and the teachings, and we stay connected in community between calls via our own Mighty Network. 

Recently, I’ve been hearing from the Grandmothers again. They are visiting me, which is a humble and life-altering experience. They are our guides through this journey – out of the depletion of old-world, patriarchal energetics that deplete women’s resources, and into the space of the Regenerative Feminine – the Heartland. 

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Are you in the trap of an inversion?

In an inversion, the energetics are turned inside out, like a literal black hole. 

Do you know when you are in the trap of an inversion? 

Hint: it’s when you feel a lot of hardship or discomfort. 

“Inversion” is a word we’re hearing more and more in spiritual communities and I feel called today to share about it. 

Inversions are like “collapses” in the collective field of human consciousness. 

It’s like – something that most everyone believes, but it causes a lot of discomfort and most people don’t stop to consciously ask “Why are we doing this?” 

It’s like an “inside out” version of what should be reality. 

So let’s look at examples of inversions in our current collective consciousness: 

  • Men have power over women
  • It’s just normal for a woman to feel depleted
  • Women should just be expected to have sex with their husbands or partners
  • Men should always be strong 
  • The world was created by a male God 
  • You have to exhaust yourself to have the resources you need
  • People with certain genetics have power over other people with other genetics

Remember, these are collective beliefs or subconscious collective patterns. And, they turn lives inside-out and upside-down. 

They are inversions. 

And, inversions trap humans. 

That is what they are made to do. Whomever, or whatever, developed an inversion such as “males are more powerful than females” created that trap for a reason, which ended up benefitting the forces in power as alllllll of that feminine energy over time went to fuel the existence of the power structure and inversion. 

The inversion of “it’s just normal for a woman to be depleted” or “a woman should continue to give even though she’s depleted” is an inversion that benefits power structures, but not the women who are depleted. 

In an inversion, the energetics are turned inside out, like a literal black hole. 

When we participate in continuing to live out an inversion, giving our energy to it, we give our energy to the black hole. This is why we feel depleted, experience traumas related to power and domination, etc. 

Your energy does not have to be given to the black hole of an inversion. 

As we awaken in consciousness, we are giving less and less energy to these mind-tricks and then, we will need to discover alternatives. (Right now, we are still collectively confused about the alternatives because as people are tired of the inversion and the associated black-hole depletion, they fight back. But this only causes more depletion and net loss of energy. So for example, women fighting against patriarchy while being mad at men is a net loss of energy into the black hole that created the power dynamic in the first place, not a freedom from it.) 

Women, you have the opportunity now through Sept 9 to heal the inversion of feminine depletion by entering the Heartland for our 2023 group journey. 


Heartland is a full codex and regenerative solution to the inversion of feminine depletion. 

Yes, you read that right. 

Depending on how you now decide to devote to your thriving life force, Heartland is an opportunity for a complete healing of the inversion of patriarchal depletion on women, and a rising into a new and unified paradigm based in new expressions of love and prosperity. 

I believe this is where the world is going. 

And women, Heartland is our pathway.  

For women, transactions-first models feel gross.

We are modern women, waking up to the truth of who we are, and standing in that truth. We are formulating businesses, offerings and strategies, according to the full truth of who we are. We are choosing where to spend our money based on how we feel, who we know personally, and what ethos we want to support.

For women, sales are not first.


I think more and more, women are keen to know when a situation is transactional, and we’re opting out of it.

A few years ago I joined a women’s community where the premise was everyone was featuring their offers, but it really in practice reduced to everyone selling to one another. Or trying to. I never sold anything. Not because my work isn’t valuable or applicable to the women there – it could have been really useful – but I think it was because everyone felt “sold to” when maybe what we wanted was connection first.

Over many years now of what I’ll call spiritual entrepreneurship, I have worked with coaches whose models I no longer agree with ethically, and I’ve watched as female entrepreneurs first emulate and then try to adapt and improve current models.

I’ve also watched women’s circles that are like pyramid schemes and rely on overly-feminine processes and don’t effectively help women creators to launch and be prosperous.

As women creators who are bringing deep wisdom through based on life experiences, training, spiritual evolution and consciousness, we’ve got great offers, but how to get them to really fly? Sales gets tiring, but more than that, it often just doesn’t feel aligned to the authentic nature of what we’re trying to bring forward.

To be a solo-entrepreneur really requires one to constantly sell themselves, which isn’t the point, because we’re trying to sell an offer that improves someone’s lives but we’re a one-woman show, so it looks like we’re trying to sell us.

Which feels gross by the time we really experience it. Maybe more so depending on the level of ethics one chooses to utilize.

So, integrating experience with intuition, I’m going to offer a new way.

A new community model formulated on relationships first, but with the intent that every single woman in the space thrive financially and experience prosperity in all areas of her life.

And, it’s a community that fosters women’s unique gifts and talents, allowing her to experience prosperity in alignment with her true calling and essence.

This community is based on the premise that women can be exactly who they are, develop their ideas into financially viable offerings, and be celebrated and experience prosperity along the way. This is the Sacred Remembering Community.

Over the next 5 to 10 years, I want to see this grow into an entirely new model for women’s success. Since apparently the Barbie Movie just made it acceptable for us to now say “patriarchy” publicly without cringe, I’ll say it is an alternative or antidote model to patriarchy. (I said patriarchy in 2019 in my TEDx, which TED just so happened to not want to publish… so I’m glad we’re moving forward.)

I’m coming up on two years of running this community, and what I’ve witnessed here as well in the other groups I’ve hosted is that when women know one another, and care about one another’s whole experience, they will naturally uplift one another.

Without making sales, marketing or transactions the focus, women’s prosperity elevates when women form authentic relationships first.

So the basis of Sacred Remembering is “women waking up to the truth of who they are, and standing in that truth.” We share the “this is who I really am” part, which leads to women feeling more confident to stand in that truth, which then leads to more prosperity.

So let me give you an example.

If I know Audrey as a friend via community, and I have seen Audrey’s personal and spiritual evolution, and I’ve heard in Community Calls why she cares so much about the topic that led her to creating a business or an offering, I’m going to tell everyone I know  about Audrey‘s offering.

Because it’s a genuine on two levels. One, I have a relationship with Audrey, and two, I have witnessed her authentic process, the reclaiming of her own truths, and her passion.

Also, when a woman really touches into the *very* thing she cares most about, she lights up. When we see that in community, we reflect to one another, “Yes! That! Please share that with the world!”

When women or female entrepreneurs are trying to do this in isolation, we don’t have the feedback, and we don’t have the community to uplift us, which leads one down the road of becoming transactional. We have to sell our products. And that really is grating and draining to the cultivated feminine system within a woman. If we want to stop emulating patriarchy, we remember what life with the integrated feminine actually feels like (Barbie doesn’t understand that part yet), and then we have to develop new models that nourish, rather than deplete, the feminine.

When you are in authentic community, and someone over-steps and tries to sell to you first, it feels abrasive and inappropriate to the feminine essence. The feminine flourishes with relationships, a felt-sense of truth and trust, and connection.

I’m always astonished on LinkedIn that anyone thinks that they can come into my inbox and sell me some thing with one message. My clients do not make the decision to work with me through one message, they make the decision to work with me through trust, relationally, over time. I pretty much never invest my money when I hear about something for the first time, especially not a coaching or business mentorship offer, because I have no trust formulated for the person who just popped into my inbox. I actually don’t even finish reading the message, because when you put transactions first, it is off putting to the feminine.

It feels so good as a woman to stop playing transactional games. It feels so good as a woman to lift up other women, and have other women lift me up. It feels good to trust that we can all rise together – and that we will.

We are modern women, waking up to the truth of who we are, and standing in that truth. We are formulating businesses, offerings and strategies, according to the full truth of who we are. We are choosing where to spend our money based on how we feel, who we know personally, and what ethos we want to support.

For more information on the Sacred Remembering Community, please visit SarahPoet.com.

Energy architecture & the source of longing.

The consciousness of what we are doing in our awakening on the planet at this time is remembering that there is a greater field, a greater system of architecture and alignment that our soul was always intended to be a part of.

When we are connected to the One Source God Source, the all that is, it’s not an idea, it is an energetic architecture, a patterning that encompasses Life.

There are many many distortions in this patterning. Many things that we call social structures or cultural dynamics, like patriarchy and misogyny, narcissism, but what these things actually are are like glitches in the field. Like a bad “program.” Another way to say that would be to say a “fallen architecture.” 

When we obey or align ourselves to the fallen architecture and to the fallen systems, because almost all the time we think that this is reality itself, we then feel our traumas and memories and what we know as humans, we get confused about what reality is. And so a lot of the time these fallen/false templates are default modes of operation, rather than our own awakened consciousness, which you can imagine serves someone else’s agenda – not your own. And the energy that you relentlessly give, trying to “improve” your conditions within a fallen architecture are actually rerouted to serve negative agendas. Your energy is used against Life rather than for it.

The consciousness of what we are doing in our awakening on the planet at this time is remembering that there is a greater field, a greater system of architecture and alignment that our soul was always intended to be a part of. 

We were all designed to connect right into the architecture of the pure consciousness of Source and of the Earth and the healthy grids in the earth. You can look at it like a sacred geometry. And it is these fallen templates that have broken humans from the architecture – an actual energetic break has occurred – and there is immense opportunity now to realign, reconfigure, and actually re-energize our template or blueprint. 

So what does this look like? Yes, it looks like trauma healing, getting free of patterns, boundaries, knowing where our resources go, etc etc but it is also developing practices where you are actually practicing the new energetics and restoring the architecture of Source within You. You have to erect the fallen architecture. It’s the very crux of what we are doing on this planet.

We yearn to be a part of creation. We yearn to know the divine and heal depletion – and this is how we do it.

You have to practice the energetics that you do not see around you in the 3D, but you trust to exist because your Soul longs not only to know God, but to know your connection with the living frequencies of God, which is possible.

It’s like you’re saying, “Okay I know that there is all this fallen architecture and falsehood, and I am going to spend time every single day practicing what is actually true, and what I actually want to cultivate.” You get yourself free in this way. This connection that is inherently regenerative, inherently life-giving, and it is within that sacred connection to the Christos Sophia, to the earth grids, to Source, and “clicking” back into the architecture that was always designed to be whole. 

On my journey, I say that I have been healing and reuniting feminine and masculine on all levels. Let’s look at what that has to do with this. The human mind has a lot to grasp as we exit patriarchy and have to rewrite this patterns, these stories, about who has power and who doesn’t, and who has access to resources, who provides, who creates, etc which continues to reinforce a false-architecture and false-grid under our lives and under the earth as we repeat those stories. 

To spend time every single day realigning to that which is inherently the structure of the earth that we always dream of and want to live on, and there’s all these methodologies for navigating walking as a human on the planet, but humans are still suffering and I think that this is because we are not actually reconnecting to the Source connection and grid connection and circulating the new, vibrant, regenerative frequencies that are available to us. Everyday spirituality doesn’t get at this. 

We can bring the integrity of this divine architecture back to our lives. These are not just ideas, this is an energy system. So feminine and masculine becomes a dance with Creation, because all of life is the Christos Sophia, the masculine & feminine energies, and that all organization comes from this dance. Sophia is the creational space and sound, and the Christos being the light consciousness and when they come together they create the third thing – creating a trinity. The trinity frequency is inherently regenerative. 

We need to stop trying to heal our suffering without changing the structure of consciousness that we are operating in. Most of us do not see the bridge. It is through the reunification of that which creates and structures the Architecture of Living Life.

So when I am talking to women about the Heartland, I am talking about this journey where we are replacing the old template and connecting into Place (positive earth grids), the Heart, and new frequencies. We do this via connections in Nature, allowing yourself to journey into a multidimensional experience that is a combination of this world and what is not of this physical world (but where this world could go as humans anchor this architecture), allowing the “regenerative feminine” frequencies to work through our being, clearing the holographic field, and imagining a new reality for the feminine (and all life), and in doing so, we bring the New Earth, the new world, closer together. We’re bringing the future closer. 

We go to the Heartland and say, “This is more real than anything that I have been experiencing in these fallen templates, and I don’t choose these false things like depletion and scarcity anymore.” You might still have residual trauma, or get triggered, or still have money issues, because humanity is complex, and, we simultaneously choose to cultivate a practice to experience a New Earth regenerative feminine frequency, continually. We are going to be on this path, with ever-better results and experiences, for the rest of our lives and then some. Because we are talking about planetary evolution, and each of us is an integral part of that. It’s why we are here.

This is the invitation. To receive the Heartland codes, to practice them, and to allow them to change your life, just like you would practice anything else. Also, in being in these new frequencies, we clear much of the old density of the other realms because we have just realized a higher frequency and lower density problems can not continue to exist in these spaces. It requires diligence and devotion to discover and hold a new frequency. But doesn’t it sound worth it? 

Heartland 2023 begins September 13, 2023.

It’s okay to heal slowly.

I’ve been in dark nights of the soul before, sort of slashing my way through the dark. But this was tender, like walking myself forward by candlelight and love. 

Hello love, 

Have you ever felt that pressure to get it together when you’ve come undone? Have you felt the pressure to not be a mess when you just are? 

Or how about the pressure to go out and make money when really, you’re just not okay on the inside and you need time to heal? 

Where does this pressure come from? As I ponder it, it’s so bonkers (I love that word.) 

It’s bonkers because it’s the pace of the outer world, the world that humans have created that goes oh-so-fast, that doesn’t let you take a dang minute when you really need one. Which is traumatizing in and of itself. 

Last year, I took time to heal. It wasn’t productive, or lucrative, or super clean. It was caterpillar-turn-to-mush messy. I didn’t know what the result would be. I took time to get off the high-speed train of life (which for me, included a lot of old patterns of hyperarousal and fight/flight even as someone who “understood” this) and to heal something deep within me.

What was I healing? Well, I’ll tell you, at the risk that you’ll stop reading right here. But that’s the risk, isn’t it? Can we be with what is real in order to truly acknowledge and heal it? I was healing a mixture of deep loneliness and finding my personal lovability. It was triggered when, after I’d been so diligent about healing my sexual abuse trauma for so long, I experienced family rejection and a breakup that triggered the old sexual trauma all at the same time. I was also taking care of myself after finding out huge interdimensional intel on soul-level attacks I’d endured throughout my life. Someone recently called this Complex Sexual Trauma (like, including the invisible multidimensional f*ckery). Well, I’ve had it, and it became too much for this female-bodied light worker on a mission to handle for a while.

Also, I needed to go through this to help other women heal in the ways few are talking about. I was walking an embodied piece of Heartland alchemy. 

And it’s been about a year of going down and through this in order to come out the other side. That’s the slowest, sweetest healing I’ve ever done. I know the rest of my life will be so much better for it. And I know that it has changed the way I show up for myself, and embodied a new softness now within me. 

We like to throw around concepts like, “The feminine should be soft and receptive.” Well, in this world, that takes a lot of actual healing in order to happen, not pressure. 

This week I was thinking about the gift of giving yourself time for healing, and I put this message on social media – It’s okay to heal slowly, and if you’re healing slowly, it probably means you’re actually healing. Apparently others needed to hear it too, and I really respect that we can openly say this now. Many expressed gratitude for the message.

We are humans that have endured quite a bit of separation – I call these various events and societal circumstances “traumas of separation.” These traumas hurt the heart, they are held in the body, the soma, and they need to be met with tenderness and love. 

I’ve also been thinking about how sometimes I find myself judging the word “healing.” So I bet I’m not the only one who does that, too. Like “healing” isn’t as “woke” as “ascending” or something. So funny. 

I’ve always been this edge-walker who doesn’t really fit into boxes, and I’ve been this spiritual “coach” who is also really willing to acknowledge trauma as a part of the spiritual path. Healing trauma is a part of the spiritual path. How could it not be? You have to un-burden the effects of trauma to realize your God-nature. Anything else is bypassing and glossing over what’s hard, in my opinion. 

If trauma lives in the body, and it does, and we are spiritual beings in bodies, then how in the world are you going to deny an embodied trauma or stuck energy and just say, “Spritually, I’m great!” This is cutting the body, the feminine, off from the head, the masculine, and I’ve just never been game for participating in that. 

And so, healing is spiritual and not at all shameful. Also, if you are a womb-holder on this planet, you have likely experienced trauma, and we need to be talking more about those invisible assaults on the womb because this is what is keeping women impoverished. 

But literally, I’ve been interviewed on spiritual podcasts and because I talked about healing sexual trauma, the podcast was given a trigger warning. 

I don’t want to be a walking trigger warning at all, but I want to acknowledge what others may want to avoid, because I know the time and toll that these issues have taken on my life. 

The complexities that we have endured need time and space to heal, which is alchemy. True healing is alchemy. And by “taking time to heal” by no means do I mean “sitting around while I hope things heal.” Healing is active, too. It is diligent self care, it is energy clearing, learning about what’s really been going on, it is physical care, it is seeking support. It is being committed to healing the trauma truly, through and through, not identifying as a victim and staying in the trauma. 

This last year was truly a daily devotional practice to my true essence and to deep self-love. That’s it. So every day, that looked like doing my kundalini yoga, being on my Sacred Remembering path, taking the actions I heard Spirit tell me to take, keeping the faith, sleeping well, eating right, on and on, even when I did not know if that would be how I felt every day for the rest of my life. 

I’ve been in dark nights of the soul before, sort of slashing my way through the dark. But this was tender, like walking myself forward by candlelight and love. 

That devotion, gratefully, is bringing me through the “up and out” of this process. I can’t say it’s over, nor maybe ever, since I’m always willing to do the good work of transformation. 

For the past three years, I’ve offered Heartland every spring. But this year, spring came, and the energy wasn’t right because of where I was personally. I resisted and thought, “No! It’s always a spring 8 week event!” But that wasn’t happening. 

Also for about a year now, I’ve wanted to offer Heartland as an 8 MONTH experience. Heartland has 8 topics or components. And Heartland is about a New Earth experience of the feminine where we get to heal the ley lines of our lives in tandem with the Earth, heal our bodies and wombs of these traumas, and it has “code” for what life beyond the patriarchal traumas of separation feels like. So, in 8 weeks, you get the code. The activation.

But in 8 months, we can go slowly. We can heal, experience authentic transformation, and feel it down to our cells and bones, down to the way our feet touch this Earth. 

I am so, so grateful (tears actually welling in my eyes in this moment) to be here. Exactly here, with you, now. At this time on Earth, in our need for deep healing, in the amazing capacity for true and authentic transformation. The Heaven On Earth level embodiment. 

This year, we alchemize. We step into the Heartland for 8 full months and allow it to work us slowly, easefully, truly. And, we will emerge in the Spring! 

Beloveds, thank you for being the ones who open these emails, read to the end, and allow me to show up authentically as an imperfect woman with a big heart and true gifts. I want to do more to help us re-write our expectations of women, healing, performance culture, and what it looks like for us to stand in our truth. I try to model it and I will be doing that more and more as my desire to write returns. 

Thank you for your patience as Heartland prepared me for the beautiful journey that a group of us is about to take. Yes, it is a healing journey, and yes, it is also woke AF. 😉 

You can now learn more about this 8-month journey into the Heartland here: https://www.sarahpoet.com/heartland 

In love,

Sarah