There is a force at play on the feminine principle on this planet that is inherently consumptive.
When I say “the feminine principle,” I mean the feminine in all things – woman, man, earth, children, animals… everything. Another way to say it would be “feminine energy.”
I think back to my father as a child. I was the oldest of three daughters and while we experienced a lot of provision and effort from my father, it was apparent to me in a felt-sense that he deeply hated the feminine.
There is a simultaneous longing for what is feminine, and also a willingness to consume or destroy it.
Isn’t that fascinating?
That’s called a “reversal.”
And we have a planet-wide reversal of what “feminine” or “mother” represents.
And so every woman, if she’s honest and if she’s able to slow down for a moment, can likely feel a sense of fear somewhere in her gut that is pervasive.
This is the fear of being consumed. The fear of the feminine principle in you being consumed.
This is where we collectively (in our “empowerment”) point to men as the “takers,” and while there is certainly plenty of evidence that men can act as takers, if we don’t fully understand the feminine principle, and there is a planet-wide reversal, then why do angry women expect men to fully understand how to heal this reversal and deliver it to women? That’s a little strange, don’t you think?
I think it would start at home – in us. In my remembering and action as a woman, I can heal my participation in any reversal of feminine consumptive patterning.
So I had a life-long fear that I traced to my father, because in his hatred and also his alter-ego darkness, there was plenty for me to fear as a child and young woman about being consumed, being taken from, being manipulated and brainwashed. The fear ran really, really deep.
But my mother was also super instrumental in forcing me to place my child for adoption, she denied her own daughter’s reports of abuse, and she would spend money on making things look good, but to my memory never expressed true generosity with money when I was in need.
These are examples of pretty severe reversal patterns – from both genders. From both mother and father. So the reversals are not just perpetuated by men.
Also you can sense in my examples that both had to do with my body, my children, my creation/sexual energy, and also my resources. *All of the above are affected by the consumptive patterning at play on the feminine.
When women want to stop incessantly consuming, stop keeping up with societal pressures, when we want to just “quit” the ridiculousness of always spinning our wheels and feeling exhausted, what we are really wanting to do is to heal the feminine principle in our lives.
We want to heal the fear of not having enough, the constant fear of being taken from, and we want to live in peace. We want things to be naturally abundant. We get this crazy notion that we may even be able to thrive!
What we want is to heal the reversal currents.
How we do this is to return to our organic nature. We literally create a new energy pattern in our lives.
One way to think about this is to think, “In what ways am I behaving because society / family told me to, and in what ways do I naturally intuit I want to use my energy?” Then do that. What you intuit is most likely coming from your organic nature.
It is through us that these patterns correct. It’s not something that society will do for us, because why would it? The current structures of power certainly benefit from feminine exhaustion, so I don’t presume the change would come from outside. It comes from within, from our direct remembrance of what is good, right, fair, and just and then living in accordance with that.
Truth be told, there are vast energetic networks that have kept the feminine energy, or feminine principle, both entrapped and available for consumption for a long, long time. It’s worked out for some – like my parents – who played the games as they were laid out, who amassed wealth, and who are willing to sacrifice children, love, and decency in order to maintain that wealth. It has not worked out for others, and for many of us, we are not choosing it.
I do not choose for my feminine principle to be continually exhausted in a reversal/inverted pattern that is a net-deficit game on my life force.
I do not choose for my feminine principle to be consumed.
And I do not choose it for this beautiful planet or the children coming into it.
In Heartland, we examine this truth of feminine consumption – both how the patterns play out on women, and also how we participate. When we have this information, we can begin the process of extricating ourselves from reversal currents and instead become a part of becoming what I call the “regenerative feminine” on the planet.