Awakening - Sarah Poet

Returning to the thriving nature of the feminine.

This is where we collectively (in our “empowerment”) point to men as the “takers,” and while there is certainly plenty of evidence that men can act as takers, if we don’t fully understand the feminine principle, and there is a planet-wide reversal, then why do angry women expect men to fully understand how to heal this reversal and deliver it to women? That’s a little strange, don’t you think?

There is a force at play on the feminine principle on this planet that is inherently consumptive.

When I say “the feminine principle,” I mean the feminine in all things – woman, man, earth, children, animals… everything. Another way to say it would be “feminine energy.”

I think back to my father as a child. I was the oldest of three daughters and while we experienced a lot of provision and effort from my father, it was apparent to me in a felt-sense that he deeply hated the feminine.

There is a simultaneous longing for what is feminine, and also a willingness to consume or destroy it.

Isn’t that fascinating?

That’s called a “reversal.”

And we have a planet-wide reversal of what “feminine” or “mother” represents.

And so every woman, if she’s honest and if she’s able to slow down for a moment, can likely feel a sense of fear somewhere in her gut that is pervasive.

Consistent.

This is the fear of being consumed. The fear of the feminine principle in you being consumed.

By what?

Great question.

I think it would start at home – in us. In my remembering and action as a woman, I can heal my participation in any reversal of feminine consumptive patterning.

So I had a life-long fear that I traced to my father, because in his hatred and also his alter-ego darkness, there was plenty for me to fear as a child and young woman about being consumed, being taken from, being manipulated and brainwashed. The fear ran really, really deep.

But my mother was also super instrumental in forcing me to place my child for adoption, she denied her own daughter’s reports of abuse, and she would spend money on making things look good, but to my memory never expressed true generosity with money when I was in need.

These are examples of pretty severe reversal patterns – from both genders. From both mother and father. So the reversals are not just perpetuated by men.

Also you can sense in my examples that both had to do with my body, my children, my creation/sexual energy, and also my resources. *All of the above are affected by the consumptive patterning at play on the feminine.

When women want to stop incessantly consuming, stop keeping up with societal pressures, when we want to just “quit” the ridiculousness of always spinning our wheels and feeling exhausted, what we are really wanting to do is to heal the feminine principle in our lives.

We want to heal the fear of not having enough, the constant fear of being taken from, and we want to live in peace. We want things to be naturally abundant. We get this crazy notion that we may even be able to thrive!

What we want is to heal the reversal currents.

How we do this is to return to our organic nature. We literally create a new energy pattern in our lives.

One way to think about this is to think, “In what ways am I behaving because society / family told me to, and in what ways do I naturally intuit I want to use my energy?” Then do that. What you intuit is most likely coming from your organic nature.

It is through us that these patterns correct. It’s not something that society will do for us, because why would it? The current structures of power certainly benefit from feminine exhaustion, so I don’t presume the change would come from outside. It comes from within, from our direct remembrance of what is good, right, fair, and just and then living in accordance with that.

Truth be told, there are vast energetic networks that have kept the feminine energy, or feminine principle, both entrapped and available for consumption for a long, long time. It’s worked out for some – like my parents – who played the games as they were laid out, who amassed wealth, and who are willing to sacrifice children, love, and decency in order to maintain that wealth. It has not worked out for others, and for many of us, we are not choosing it.

I do not choose for my feminine principle to be continually exhausted in a reversal/inverted pattern that is a net-deficit game on my life force.

I do not choose for my feminine principle to be consumed.

And I do not choose it for this beautiful planet or the children coming into it.

Do you?

In Heartland, we examine this truth of feminine consumption – both how the patterns play out on women, and also how we participate. When we have this information, we can begin the process of extricating ourselves from reversal currents and instead become a part of becoming what I call the “regenerative feminine” on the planet.

With great soul potential…

About a year ago, I was standing at a pot-luck in a conversation with a man who is a local shaman.

We were talking about the “next level” of our soul’s path and whether or not we were making progress.

Honestly, at the time, I didn’t feel that I was making adequate progress. Things got hard there for a minute.

I was telling him how, when I first had made the huge leap from a steady paycheck to becoming an entrepreneur, I was almost magically financially supported.

My career in education ended sort of badly and abruptly, with that extra “nudge” us soul-folks know happens when we drag our feet, and when I learned that I was going to have to leave sooner than later, I heard a message out of the blue that said, “Go refinance your house right now.”

It was SO clear and loud that I went to the bank that day. I had my employer sign my income verification about 24 hours before it would have been too late, and as a result, I had a $45,000 cushion when I was pushed out the door and into “spiritual entrepreneurship.”

I told this local shaman that story, and I told him how now I didn’t seem to be getting large sums of $45,000 or anything even close to that, and he laughed and said, “Because now it’s up to you.”

I knew what he was talking about, but it’s taken me a bit longer to really embody it.

The person who we are when we make a big leap is someone incredible! And then, we have to keep leaping! Our faith has to stay strong!

Recently, I’m learning two of those “soul lessons,” which are connected, and so I thought I’d share with you.

ONE: With great soul potential comes great responsibility.

So you’re a light-worker, an intuitive, a mystic, an artist who channels… YOU ARE A VERY SPECIAL PERSON. Great.

Now that we recognize that, what are we going to do about it? I think this recognition takes all but a holy moment, but if you’re like me, you want the recognition to last and last.

Spirit/God was like, “Yeah girl! Leap! Here’s $45K!” but why, if I don’t advance on my soul journey, would God be like, “Here, just have some more and more and more until you decide to keep going for it.” That’s like a God trust fund, which doesn’t actually feel good.

We have to continue to be an energetic match for that which we want to receive.

I’m not who I was five years ago, so I can stop expecting Spirit to treat me like it did five years ago.

TWO: When we’re waiting on God, often God is waiting on us.

So obviously these go hand in hand.

Part two of this is that while we’re waiting around for God to drop in another $45K, all pouty about why it’s not happening like that, we’re actually playing smaller than God knows that we are.

(When I say God, I’m saying Mother Father God, the 12D+ Unity force of Creation, btw.)

Recently I realized that I felt a wee bit abandoned by this Creational force. And then I realized, “Oh, God’s waiting on me to grow up and be the version of me that I now actually am.”

I was on this communal prayer call, and I thought, “I’m going to speak up for my prayer. Dang it – I’m going to do it. I never just say what I need. Here I go. I’m doing it!”

And then what happened was that it wasn’t spoken by the folks holding the call, which was *perfect* and hilarious. I went for a walk in the woods afterwards and was questioning God, a little sulky, and the message was, “Because you don’t need that! Every ball is in your court, Sarah! We’re waiting on you.”

That’s a reality check for you!

When it’s not happening for you, it may be because you are not actually being all you were sent here on Earth to be.

So, let’s check our inner victim and our inner pouty-pants, and let’s ask ourselves “Given who I am and the mission my soul is on in this lifetime, what is mine to do in this moment?”

And then we do it. Without the hand-hold, we do it. We leap into our next soul assignment, our next version of who we are meant to be and embody.

We acknowledge the responsibility of being all we came to be. And the beautiful, incredible opportunity to actually be it.

Spirit will meet us there, no question.

To the leap!

In love,
Sarah

The Grandmothers Came Forward. Ancient wisdom for the modern feminine.

In a time of personal depletion, when another relationship had failed, a league of Grandmothers came forward with a blessing for all of us.

When Heartland came to me, I was living on a piece of land that I’d been invited to live on by a man I was in a relationship with.

When he told me (long story short) that I’d have to leave again, no warning, after asking me and my child to move in and “make a life with him,” I was completely blindsided, but also… not.

This sort of thing had happened before.

Investing in the masculine with my feminine resources, wanting to receive goodness and be in a conscious relationship, and hoping that through it all, my prosperity would actually amplify rather than life being harder for it.

But my prosperity was depleting. Overall, as I had invested myself into these relationships, my overall resources- including financial – were depleting.

I fell to my knees on this sacred piece of earth that I’d been living on for the last eight months. I had been working with this one area of the land that felt like a divine portal of energy, and I was learning through direct intuition and listening to the land the reality of the feminine currents in the earth, the ley lines, and how we all are rehabilitating the feminine on earth together.

And as I was in this awakening, my resources were attacked. It was no accident. As I was getting stronger in some ways, it was like some invisible force was going to make sure that I didn’t get too far ahead.

What this meant for my finances, my relationship with my son, my living situation, my ability to focus on my business – the overall cost of this situation and the depletion was going to set me back. One more thing to deal with. I felt like my usual strength was waning.

I fell to my knees on wet Earth and I think my forehead even laid on the ground. I was beyond being “over it.” I don’t remember exactly what my prayer was, but it was something like, “Why?” and from the depth of my soul.

Answered Prayer:

And in that moment, droves of Grandmothers came forward. I had never seen anything like it. They showed up to answer the question so deep within me.

Some were indigenous people of the land, some were grandmothers of my own lineage, others were clearly star beings and had different body shapes, some were made of light. Some carried their crafts and others reached out to me.

They all came forward.

They cried, they wailed, they banged drums. They made sounds on behalf of the Earth and they gave me these messages. They said, “Remember, the Earth knows this depletion. The Earth knows what it is to be taken advantage of. Every day while living on this land, you listen to the machines in the nearby quarry, you feel the rape of the land. You know that there is a sacred transit of feminine energy running through this land and you know that the quarry is at war for it. You know this and you are not wrong.

“And She is tired. The Earth is tired. The feminine has been tired. We women know your tiredness. We women know the loss of resources to men, to the White Man and consumption, to this way of being that people have that is not sacred, is not the Holy way of being a man. We cry with you. We grieve with you. We know. We see you. Sister, we see you.”

They stood before me and acknowledged, with great empathy and solidarity, the ancient depletion of the feminine that I was experiencing in real time. In that moment, the acknowledgement was so deep.

They gave me Heartland:

They let me know that they were going to help me, but that I was also responsible for sharing this with others. They gave me 8 specific teachings, they called this “Heartland,” and for the last two and a half years, I have been gestating and integrating the Heartland into my life.

Or rather, I have been allowing for the integration of my life into Heartland. Because that’s really what the invitation is – to advance the lives of women beyond feminine depletion, to go to a place that is so inherently regenerative, and to learn that we can access this “place” all of the time.

Heartland is a codex for the New Earth. I don’t love using those words, because they sound so flashy, but truthfully, that is what Heartland is.

I’ve taught Heartland twice, over 8 weeks both times. This year, we will be slowing down this journey to truly activate the teachings at the cellular level and to allow for lives to truly advance. We meet twice a month for energetic alchemy and the teachings, and we stay connected in community between calls via our own Mighty Network.

Recently, I’ve been hearing from the Grandmothers again. They are visiting me, which is a humble and life-altering experience. They are our guides through this journey – out of the depletion of old-world, patriarchal energetics that deplete women’s resources, and into the space of the Regenerative Feminine – the Heartland.

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Are you in the trap of an inversion?

In an inversion, the energetics are turned inside out, like a literal black hole.

Do you know when you are in the trap of an inversion?

Hint: it’s when you feel a lot of hardship or discomfort.

“Inversion” is a word we’re hearing more and more in spiritual communities and I feel called today to share about it.

Inversions are like “collapses” in the collective field of human consciousness.

It’s like – something that most everyone believes, but it causes a lot of discomfort and most people don’t stop to consciously ask “Why are we doing this?”

It’s like an “inside out” version of what should be reality.

So let’s look at examples of inversions in our current collective consciousness:

Men have power over women
It’s just normal for a woman to feel depleted
Women should just be expected to have sex with their husbands or partners
Men should always be strong
The world was created by a male God
You have to exhaust yourself to have the resources you need
People with certain genetics have power over other people with other genetics

Remember, these are collective beliefs or subconscious collective patterns. And, they turn lives inside-out and upside-down.

They are inversions.

And, inversions trap humans.

That is what they are made to do. Whomever, or whatever, developed an inversion such as “males are more powerful than females” created that trap for a reason, which ended up benefitting the forces in power as alllllll of that feminine energy over time went to fuel the existence of the power structure and inversion.

The inversion of “it’s just normal for a woman to be depleted” or “a woman should continue to give even though she’s depleted” is an inversion that benefits power structures, but not the women who are depleted.

In an inversion, the energetics are turned inside out, like a literal black hole.

When we participate in continuing to live out an inversion, giving our energy to it, we give our energy to the black hole. This is why we feel depleted, experience traumas related to power and domination, etc.

Your energy does not have to be given to the black hole of an inversion.

As we awaken in consciousness, we are giving less and less energy to these mind-tricks and then, we will need to discover alternatives. (Right now, we are still collectively confused about the alternatives because as people are tired of the inversion and the associated black-hole depletion, they fight back. But this only causes more depletion and net loss of energy. So for example, women fighting against patriarchy while being mad at men is a net loss of energy into the black hole that created the power dynamic in the first place, not a freedom from it.)

Women, you have the opportunity now through Sept 9 to heal the inversion of feminine depletion by entering the Heartland for our 2023 group journey.

Heartland is a full codex and regenerative solution to the inversion of feminine depletion.

Yes, you read that right.

Depending on how you now decide to devote to your thriving life force, Heartland is an opportunity for a complete healing of the inversion of patriarchal depletion on women, and a rising into a new and unified paradigm based in new expressions of love and prosperity.

I believe this is where the world is going.

And women, Heartland is our pathway.

It’s okay to heal slowly.

I’ve been in dark nights of the soul before, sort of slashing my way through the dark. But this was tender, like walking myself forward by candlelight and love.

Hello love,

Have you ever felt that pressure to get it together when you’ve come undone? Have you felt the pressure to not be a mess when you just are?

Or how about the pressure to go out and make money when really, you’re just not okay on the inside and you need time to heal?

Where does this pressure come from? As I ponder it, it’s so bonkers (I love that word.)

It’s bonkers because it’s the pace of the outer world, the world that humans have created that goes oh-so-fast, that doesn’t let you take a dang minute when you really need one. Which is traumatizing in and of itself.

Last year, I took time to heal. It wasn’t productive, or lucrative, or super clean. It was caterpillar-turn-to-mush messy. I didn’t know what the result would be. I took time to get off the high-speed train of life (which for me, included a lot of old patterns of hyperarousal and fight/flight even as someone who “understood” this) and to heal something deep within me.

What was I healing? Well, I’ll tell you, at the risk that you’ll stop reading right here. But that’s the risk, isn’t it? Can we be with what is real in order to truly acknowledge and heal it? I was healing a mixture of deep loneliness and finding my personal lovability. It was triggered when, after I’d been so diligent about healing my sexual abuse trauma for so long, I experienced family rejection and a breakup that triggered the old sexual trauma all at the same time. I was also taking care of myself after finding out huge interdimensional intel on soul-level attacks I’d endured throughout my life. Someone recently called this Complex Sexual Trauma (like, including the invisible multidimensional f*ckery). Well, I’ve had it, and it became too much for this female-bodied light worker on a mission to handle for a while.

Also, I needed to go through this to help other women heal in the ways few are talking about. I was walking an embodied piece of Heartland alchemy.

And it’s been about a year of going down and through this in order to come out the other side. That’s the slowest, sweetest healing I’ve ever done. I know the rest of my life will be so much better for it. And I know that it has changed the way I show up for myself, and embodied a new softness now within me.

We like to throw around concepts like, “The feminine should be soft and receptive.” Well, in this world, that takes a lot of actual healing in order to happen, not pressure.

This week I was thinking about the gift of giving yourself time for healing, and I put this message on social media – It’s okay to heal slowly, and if you’re healing slowly, it probably means you’re actually healing. Apparently others needed to hear it too, and I really respect that we can openly say this now. Many expressed gratitude for the message.

We are humans that have endured quite a bit of separation – I call these various events and societal circumstances “traumas of separation.” These traumas hurt the heart, they are held in the body, the soma, and they need to be met with tenderness and love.

I’ve also been thinking about how sometimes I find myself judging the word “healing.” So I bet I’m not the only one who does that, too. Like “healing” isn’t as “woke” as “ascending” or something. So funny.

I’ve always been this edge-walker who doesn’t really fit into boxes, and I’ve been this spiritual “coach” who is also really willing to acknowledge trauma as a part of the spiritual path. Healing trauma is a part of the spiritual path. How could it not be? You have to un-burden the effects of trauma to realize your God-nature. Anything else is bypassing and glossing over what’s hard, in my opinion.

If trauma lives in the body, and it does, and we are spiritual beings in bodies, then how in the world are you going to deny an embodied trauma or stuck energy and just say, “Spritually, I’m great!” This is cutting the body, the feminine, off from the head, the masculine, and I’ve just never been game for participating in that.

And so, healing is spiritual and not at all shameful. Also, if you are a womb-holder on this planet, you have likely experienced trauma, and we need to be talking more about those invisible assaults on the womb because this is what is keeping women impoverished.

But literally, I’ve been interviewed on spiritual podcasts and because I talked about healing sexual trauma, the podcast was given a trigger warning.

I don’t want to be a walking trigger warning at all, but I want to acknowledge what others may want to avoid, because I know the time and toll that these issues have taken on my life.

The complexities that we have endured need time and space to heal, which is alchemy. True healing is alchemy. And by “taking time to heal” by no means do I mean “sitting around while I hope things heal.” Healing is active, too. It is diligent self care, it is energy clearing, learning about what’s really been going on, it is physical care, it is seeking support. It is being committed to healing the trauma truly, through and through, not identifying as a victim and staying in the trauma.

This last year was truly a daily devotional practice to my true essence and to deep self-love. That’s it. So every day, that looked like doing my kundalini yoga, being on my Sacred Remembering path, taking the actions I heard Spirit tell me to take, keeping the faith, sleeping well, eating right, on and on, even when I did not know if that would be how I felt every day for the rest of my life.

I’ve been in dark nights of the soul before, sort of slashing my way through the dark. But this was tender, like walking myself forward by candlelight and love.

That devotion, gratefully, is bringing me through the “up and out” of this process. I can’t say it’s over, nor maybe ever, since I’m always willing to do the good work of transformation.

For the past three years, I’ve offered Heartland every spring. But this year, spring came, and the energy wasn’t right because of where I was personally. I resisted and thought, “No! It’s always a spring 8 week event!” But that wasn’t happening.

Also for about a year now, I’ve wanted to offer Heartland as an 8 MONTH experience. Heartland has 8 topics or components. And Heartland is about a New Earth experience of the feminine where we get to heal the ley lines of our lives in tandem with the Earth, heal our bodies and wombs of these traumas, and it has “code” for what life beyond the patriarchal traumas of separation feels like. So, in 8 weeks, you get the code. The activation.

But in 8 months, we can go slowly. We can heal, experience authentic transformation, and feel it down to our cells and bones, down to the way our feet touch this Earth.

I am so, so grateful (tears actually welling in my eyes in this moment) to be here. Exactly here, with you, now. At this time on Earth, in our need for deep healing, in the amazing capacity for true and authentic transformation. The Heaven On Earth level embodiment.

This year, we alchemize. We step into the Heartland for 8 full months and allow it to work us slowly, easefully, truly. And, we will emerge in the Spring!

Beloveds, thank you for being the ones who open these emails, read to the end, and allow me to show up authentically as an imperfect woman with a big heart and true gifts. I want to do more to help us re-write our expectations of women, healing, performance culture, and what it looks like for us to stand in our truth. I try to model it and I will be doing that more and more as my desire to write returns.

Thank you for your patience as Heartland prepared me for the beautiful journey that a group of us is about to take. Yes, it is a healing journey, and yes, it is also woke AF. 😉

You can now learn more about this 8-month journey into the Heartland here: https://www.sarahpoet.com/heartland

In love,

Sarah

Connecting to Positive Earth Grid Frequencies: Guided Audio Included

Why would we want to take the time to connect to the positive earth grids? Or what does it have to do with our lives and our healing?

Why would we want to take the time to connect to the positive earth grids?

Or what does it have to do with our lives and our healing?

For many years, I’ve been on a journey of feminine & masculine awakening, and on this journey I was also surprised to discover that in fact a lot of the “imbalance” between these two is actually in the energy of the planet.

We know that the imbalance of feminine & masculine presents in our culture as a struggle with a domination paradigm, confusion about power, access to resources, and more.

We know that many try to “balance” feminine and masculine through concepts, spiritual exploration, polarity play in relationships, integrating both within oneself, and more.

But seeing as these two forces actually comprise all of creation, it should not surprise us to realize that the planetary energy architecture, as well as your body’s energetic architecture, is also comprised of feminine & masculine.

HERE’S THE PART YOU REALLY NEED TO BE AWARE OF:

What was very fascinating and deeply resonating to me was to learn how the energy flow of feminine within the planet can and has been massively corrupted.

There are both positive (helpful) and negative (harmful) grid networks within the planet that either run a regenerative feminine current (helpful) or seek to take, corrupt, and utilize feminine current for harmful purposes.

This has been going on since the imbalance of feminine and masculine occurred, and honestly, is closer to the root cause of the issue than anything societal.

So, to be quick to the point – we can help to heal and restore the feminine current within ourselves the most easily while we do it in conjunction with the planet.

Feminine depletion and the corruption of how feminine energy is assumed to be available is deeply felt by us all, and potentially especially people who identify as “women.” Through my work with Heartland and the Regenerative Feminine, I want to give women a HUGE leg-up in dealing with depletion energetics by actually working with the energy of the woman and the planet to help her to restore her energy, and her access to divine union via the Heart.

The following track just “gets your feet wet.” From here, we enter into the various regenerative frequencies that the Heartland has to offer.

Please see the following links for the next opportunity to journey more deeply into correcting these “imbalances” via the positive earth grids and the regenerative space of the Heartland. I look forward to traveling with you into these restorative realms!

Heartland annual group: https://www.sarahpoet.com/heartland

Regenerative Feminine Guided Live Events: https://www.sarahpoet.com/regenerativefeminine

Guided introduction to connecting to the positive frequency space of the Heartland.

The Masculine As Consciousness & the Effects of Psychedelics

When I, as a woman, think of the masculine as consciousness, I soften in my front body. I trust that if the masculine is consciousness, there is an energetic penetration that allows for my feminine to open.

Do we agree that the feminine is vastness? Openness? It’s okay if we don’t agree, though I’ll continue from this premise.

When I have a relationship with the masculine as light (an expression of consciousness), I feel a trust that life is organized. It is an energetic response. My openness can organize in response to this light.

When I have a trust for masculine as consciousness and light, the natural expression of this is penetration, and there is no guarding, no protective response in me. There is only trust, softening, organization of my openness. I am attracted toward the penetration of this essence of masculine. Energetically, this is the only response of the feminine to true masculine essence.

Now, let’s look at men and psychedelics, because brothers, I’m concerned about things I see.

Psychedelics open your mind. They awaken you. Fabulous, if you choose it as a tool, so be it. Yet I am concerned about the perpetual openness of the consciousness that often results. An openness, a spiritual vastness that some would say is terrific. But is it? Of course open your mind to the inner workings of the All That Is, but if you exude the quality of openness rather perpetually, then where is your penetrative consciousness?

When I find myself in front of a very spiritual man who spends a lot of time on psychedelics, my feminine does not open toward it. Because it can’t. There is no natural inclination to open in this case.

You know what I find to be a lot hotter? Kundalini yoga. It creates a sharpness in the consciousness and in the aura that is… you guessed it…. Penetrative. Reliable. Trustworthy.

Am I saying openness and feminine are not trustworthy? No.

Am I shaming men for being feminine? No.

I am saying that I personally can not feel, in my woman body, an energetic response to your vastness, because I am vastness, and you are not giving me the consciousness needed to electrify my vastness. You have to electrify, to penetrate with embodied God Consciousness, to be poignant in order to invite the true feminine respond to your masculine energy.

There is a difference, energetically, between perpetually open men with endless ideas and men who apply insights to activated consciousness in order to enact more structure, more influence, more impact on this planet.

If you touch God Consciousness while on psychedelics, how do you apply that to the organization of your life? How do you apply this consciousness to new organized structures on the planet? How do you become so embodied, so reliable in these structures that the feminine trusts you more? These are the questions I’d pose.

How do you integrate the openness found in psychedelics into the wholeness of embodied masculinity? If this is what you choose. But you’ll find that women respond much better to you when your consciousness is sharp.

If you feel more open than a woman’s own feminine, then she can not respond to your energy and she can not trust you.

Tell me, men, how do you practice embodying your divinity?

Your connection to the Earth Grids

A few years ago in client energy sessions, I started to see a golden, lit-up architecture both through and around people. I gathered that what I was seeing was an actual architecture, or grid system, around their bodies.

Often, and becoming more regular all the time, you’ll hear me use the words “energy architecture” and “earth grid.”

It is also more common than you’d think that people ask me for a glossary of terms. Noted.

So today I want to share a bit about what these two terms mean to me. These “definitions” are coming from my own Sacred Remembering path. That is to say, I discovered it for myself.

I tend to spend a lot of time (like, years) seeing things I feel to be true and still questioning myself. Recently, I’m getting a big message to knock that off and just come out with it already.

I do often reference the Ascension Glossary and Lisa Renee’s work when I want to double check a hunch I am having (she already made a glossary.) Her work feels true to me down to the marrow of my bones, because she is describing what my soul is remembering.

On the Sacred Remembering path, too, it can simultaneously feel like you’re “figuring something out” and like you know nothing at all. And isn’t that always the truth anyway?

That said, back to energy architecture & earth grids, and WHY I’m talking about these now.

A few years ago in client energy sessions, I started to see a golden, lit-up architecture both through and around people. When I say I “see” it, it is in my own inner mind’s eye that I see it while I am on a phone session with someone. So they could be in the next town or on the other side of the world, and I can “see” this when they give me permission to see it, and only when I’m in session and in service. Integrity is very important in energy work.

I gathered that what I was seeing was an actual architecture, or grid system, around their bodies. The way this appeared to me looked like two things I can compare it to: my son’s old K’Nex toy towers, and the little structures that the Doozers in Fraggle Rock were always busy building. (Am I the only Fraggle fan here? I hope not. Wait… were Fraggles & Doozers also grid workers? 😉 Come to think of it, I bet they were!)

I think we often hear of such concepts as the chakras or the aura, but I see an actual golden light architecture, and I see where it’s compromised or broken. Through your own Soul & Source connections, in sessions we can repair the broken architecture. Also, in my opinion and experience, we are WAY bigger than the concept of the seven chakras and we’d be well empowered to imagine beyond that construct – with the help of grid architecture. Chakra is not a term you’ll hear me use very often for this reason. We are bigger than that, and we need to heal beyond that – into the grids.

How does our energy architecture become broken?

Trauma, sexual abuse, relational disconnect, feeling separate from Source/God, attacks on your personal power, etc. Also, deep systems such as religion and patriarchy did not want you to have a fully in-tact energetic architecture because to have this connects you back into Source. So in the human forgetting game on the planet, a long time ago, humans were systematically separated from their direct connection to Source. When you remember this connection, you regain Sovereignty and Personal Power. There were a lot of dark forces over the ages that did not want people to have this, and so, it was purposefully tampered with and broken.

If humans remembered and reconnected into their Source connection, we wouldn’t have the problems we have on the planet and consciousness would immediately evolve.

Now, Earth Grids:

When you go get acupuncture, they put needles into points along energy meridians in your body. You could imagine earth grids to be like those energy meridians, or channels. There is an architecture to the earth grids as well.

Two important things to know about the earth grids:

1. They are carrying the feminine life current

2. We connect into them

Our energy architecture in our bodies connects in (click!) to the energy architecture in the Earth, when things are in working order. There is a certain sacred geometry for this, but we have to consciously repair it in order for this flow to occur.

I believe that many people on the planet, women especially, are looking for this information. I know my soul was searching for it. I also feel a divine instruction to share it back with you after years of mysterious discoveries and sometimes very weird occurrences.

Also important! When we experience trauma, especially in the lower centers of the physical body, we are disconnected from the earth grids. The connection is broken. Over time, this was also systematic to overpower humans, as I described above. Many of us are necessarily waking up to the fact that not all people or energies are good, and it is possible that you would have been hurt on purpose, potentially in your childhood and then repeatedly throughout your life, if you carry a specific gift or code for these times of spiritual ascension. I was repeatedly targeted, from a very young age and by people who should have protected me, but they were acting under the influence of the dark entities that do not want this kind of knowledge and empowerment to be discovered. This is why we practice clarity in our mission and energetic sovereignty – day in and day out.

Tune into your energy architecture, your Source Connection, and your Earth Grid connection. Do you “see” or imagine anything? Can you envision any kind of structure?

Do you feel a very deep connection to nature and sometimes feel as if you must go to a certain place and lay down a certain stone or sing a song there, for example? You may be a gridworker! We are working for the clearing of the grids, and also the reconnection between the Earth and Source, with our human bodies as the conduits!

You can enter a meditative state and ask, “Am I connected into my Unified Source Architecture?” and feel if you get a “yes” or a “no.” Do the same with a question like, “Am I connected into the Sovereign Earth Grid Currents?” Feel a yes or a no.

These are some of the energetic structures of ideas like Unity and Oneness. A person can have these ideas but still be acting with a very fractured architecture (which is most common). Healing your energetic architecture is next-level, in my opinion, along with going TO Source intelligence to organize your energy field. Did you know you had that kind of power?

Are you interested in learning more about these two things?

I am hosting an event: Working with the Earth Grids to Heal Sexual Trauma & Money Problems. This event will provide education as well as guided meditations to experience more about the grids and how they pair with your body, and also utilize the benevolent energy currents of the earth grids to heal and clear layers of human miasma (trauma/gunked energy) that are currently stuck in your own earth currents.

We want CURRENCY in our grids!! I can’t wait to share more about this with you and continue to learn alongside one another.

March 4 from 2-4pm EST, the event will be geared to women, but anyone is invited.

My “business” failed this year, I’m happy to announce.

Pressuring my mission, this soul of Embodied Breath that came to me in 2017, squeezing and pushing her, always demanding more of her, behaving toward her as the world has treated the feminine – that failed this year.

I’m happy to announce, my “business” failed this year.

False marketing failed this year – pretending I have it all together when I don’t as a “coach” failed. Participating in notions of perfectionism failed. It is not a strategy that is in alignment with me.

I am happy to announce, over-giving failed this year. I stopped endlessly giving in the hopes that I would receive – clients, attention, money, or validation that what I was giving was worth it to anyone. Business built on giving in the hopes of receiving failed this year.

Trying to figure out what you wanted to hear or receive, so that I could give it, failed this year.

Getting in front of the camera or making a social media post because some formula says I’m supposed to failed this year.

Holding up more than is mine to hold up failed this year, so that other beautiful realities of how the feminine is meant to be supported could be realized and energetically restructured.

Self-sacrifice failed this year.

Emulating patriarchal, extractive business techniques that tell us that we as female entrepreneurs can “have it all!” as a one-woman show, which forces us to sell sell sell and build build build, and inherently manipulate our potential clients – that also failed this year.

Hiring business coaches to tell me how to run an inherently patriarchal business, when I could and potentially should be sharing my realizations with them, failed this year. Overlooking the inherent feminine trauma inside of this coaching “industry” while so many attempt to do it differently but are silently finding out it doesn’t work if you want to actually do it differently – that failed this year.

Participation in that which does not align with my values failed this year.

What I thought was “business” thankfully failed this year.

Assuming that if I played by the rules and legal structures laid out as options for me and other female entrepreneurs that I would be supported and successful in an inherently patriarchal culture failed this year.

Anything that is not energetically sovereign failed this year. Giving away my resources failed for me this year.

Selling myself failed this year. It’s not me or “female entrepreneurship” or talent, resume, or title that I’m selling. It’s love that I’m offering, and love that I am exchanging, because it is love that I am being, and it is love that I serve.

Love didn’t fail this year. Love was birthed this year, from what has honestly been a perpetually tender heart. Love rose as my “why” this year. And from that, trust began to thrive this year.

Connection didn’t fail. Nor did authenticity or the willingness to sit with you in the very real spaces. In fact, the most real of the real are the only spaces I will now enter, when the invitations come to invite me there.

The devotion to creating the new paradigm we need – that is thriving this year.

The need on this Earth for what Embodied Breath and I have co-created over these last four years didn’t fail – it’s alive and well. And so all of these other things failed so that I could get it in my little human head that “business” isn’t what it’s ever been about.

It’s about the mission – for unity of feminine and masculine on all levels, for the return of the regenerative and prosperous feminine, for the sovereignty of our resources.

It’s not a business, it’s a mission.

And in 2023, this mission is becoming a Ministry.

May we have the heart and wisdom to allow the old structures to fail, so that love can help build a new earth.

May my energy and my life be of service to this re-unified frequency of partnership and love.

Sarah Poet

*I am not going anywhere. This is to announce that foundations & energetic structures are changing within a regenerative frequency of Love.

You can still contact me any time.

Serving Union: https://www.sarahpoet.com/consciousrelating

Serving Women: https://www.sarahpoet.com/privatementorships

Serving Men: https://www.sarahpoet.com/private-coaching-for-men

Chapter 1: Heartland

The following is a draft first chapter of a book about women reclaiming our feminine resources. I call this the journey to the “Heartland.”

I was living in a man’s house, packing up my belongings after living there for less than a year. I’d moved my child, two cats, and everything I owned to this property per an invitation to “make a life together,” and here it was, the winter holidays, and he was in Ohio with his mother escaping the situation that was going down in his 920 square foot house. Which was: me, boxes everywhere, and everything he didn’t want to face.

I had actually paid him rent.

He invited us to live with him, but he had wanted some rent. I paid it because he wasn’t rich, we were both entrepreneurs, and I didn’t mind contributing. I will never again move into a man’s house and pay rent. But there were a lot of things we potentially should have made clearer agreements on to prior to making the decision to move in together.

Live and learn – isn’t that the name of the game?

I had sent him an email that asked for the last rent back, since I wouldn’t be staying, to reallocate to the moving costs. I think it had actually been his suggestion, and I was following up on it.

I sat down, at dusk, surrounded by piles of boxes at the kitchen table (my barn wood table that I’d now be moving back to storage), just moments before I had to host an online women’s group, and opened his reply email which said, “I will assess how you’ve left the place, after you’ve moved out, and if it is in a condition that I approve of, I will refund you your money. I will be assessing the house, the barn, and my wood pile.”

“His wood pile?” I thought.

Why the wood pile? Why would I ever touch the wood pile? The wood was his to use when he lit the wood stove in the barn, which I never did. Why would he even think to “assess” me on the condition of his wood pile before he gave me back the money that he’d already agreed to give me? These new conditions didn’t even make sense.

And, it angered me, because I had never once disrespected the property or the house. He had invited us to make a home, and I had treated it as such. I was not at all the kind of person to take vengeance on his property. Why did he all of a sudden assume this?

I couldn’t even begin to imagine how he had managed to rationalize whether or not I would get the money he’d already said he’d reimburse me, now conditionally based on the quality of his wood pile. Of all things!

I was so tired of being assessed. He had asked me and my child to move in with him, to “make a life with him,” just months prior. It was six months from our move in date to his “never mind” date. A man who had never lived with a woman, let alone her child and two cats. A man who had seemed like a sure thing, like a safe bet. He volunteered with teen boys’ groups, he woke up early to pray every morning, he had even prayed when he made love to me and miracles happened (which was essentially the reason I had said yes – it was like God was there between us). He felt like a safe bet because he’d seemed innocent and good hearted, and I was trying to ensure that this kind of shit would never happen again. Because I’d seen it all before.

Going after the girl, getting the girl, wanting the girl to reflect your manhood to you, and the “never mind” moment when they saw themselves in me (Oh, I’m not actually the man I promised you I was), and then, it is amazing how men will blame a woman for that moment of felt-inadequacy. I’d fallen for the man many times who wanted to be “that guy,” and then realized he actually wasn’t, but it’s easier to dismiss the woman than to be the man who actually looks at his shit.

Not all men. I’m not a man hater. But I know this pattern really, really well. There seemed to be a tangle when I got involved with men – where my resources would somehow be threatened. I had been an entrepreneur for three years at that point, and this was the second relationship that I’d involved myself with that ended up making my life much harder rather than easier or more pleasurable. This was the second relationship in three years that ended up costing me a lot of money rather than resulting in me having more time and energy for my business and family. And, these relationships, not surprisingly, in the end looked and felt a lot like my relationship to my father. I’d seen this pattern with a previous boss and with prior partners too. It seemed to be everywhere and I was somehow late to truly waking up to it, even though I analyzed masculine and feminine all the time.

There was always the really good beginning, and then the really surprising ending. There was wanting to believe the man, and then the dark shadow of the man revealed something much different. And I was the common denominator. I was somehow getting myself into a revolving pattern. And I was determined to figure it out and put a stop to it for absolute good.

I was depleted.

I was having to find energy where I didn’t know if I had any left.

I had cried with my forehead to the soil on this sacred, sacred piece of property, asking “Why?”

I had even allowed myself to get to the point where I was sending this goner an email saying, “Hey, can I get that money back please to pay other men to move my things for the second time this year?”

You could say I was at a breaking point. But not a mental-break, the kind of breaking point where you say “no more” about a pattern in your life, and you fucking mean it.

The wood pile comment, and his promise to assess me based on his bizarro parameters, and decide whether or not I would have access to the resources that he’d already volunteered to reimburse me for my move, was the last straw.

I was a grown woman, a mother, who had made a home in his home per his invitation. There was no part of me that would want to harm anything here. I had a deep connection with the land, and experienced deep and corresponding spiritual realizations and awakenings in relationship to this sacred place. I was having a harder time leaving the land than I was leaving him. Him, I was done with. He could drop me and my child when the honeymoon period wore off, and this lack of allegiance, again, I’d seen before so I wasn’t even that emotional about it. Fine. I’d put my eggs in the wrong basket. Now I had to pack up my entire life of belongings, give away the new trampoline and basketball hoop I’d bought for my son, be unsure for months what exact next move I would make – and all of that felt more like a pain in the ass than something that victimized me. Before, I would have fretted and felt like a victim, but not this time.

This time, it was just a pattern. This time, it was just the end. Here was this pattern, showing up with this man, who, I was sure months earlier would never have dreamed of or approved of the sort of behavior he was now demonstrating. He was a stranger now.

It was like a dark, trickster bug got into these men, these men who had loved me and laid with me, who wanted to see themselves as my partner and as a parental figure and masculine influence for my son, and then would get to a point where they literally did not care about my wellbeing. They did not care. At one point he had said (in a text because he never even had a conversation to my face), “I don’t care where you go. Just get out. And don’t pull that single-mom card with me.” They always turned on you. Starting with my father. The dark got into them and they would turn into something unrecognizable.

And, there was always an element of control. “If you behave to my liking, I’ll reimburse the money you’d given me. But it’s based on my assessment. And the state of my wood pile.” Control, control, control.

Which is when I snapped.

Snapped in the best possible way.

Snapped in the way a woman who has been trying to be good finally breaks free of the bondage of contortion. Snapped like that lead character in Fried Green Tomatoes as she screams “TOWANDA!” as she smashes the young guy’s car because she’s tired of being a doormat. Snapped like I was going to get that reoccurring dark trickster bug out of my fucking life if it was the last thing I did.

I had to stand up to it. If I didn’t, it would never go away, and it had hunted me down so many times, and I didn’t have the resources to keep losing. This was the end. This trickster who took without replenishing, who would cause a man to watch my demise and detach from his heart. This trickster that would withhold resources, time and again, just like my father had, until he approved of my behavior.

I knew that trickster inside my father, inside previous partners. I had known this energy my entire life. It used to scare me, but not any more. Now, I was going to get it the fuck OUT of my life.

“The wood pile? You’re going to assess me on the condition of the wood pile?” Game on, fucker.

The heat rose in me, fueled by an eruption of previously-suppressed, primal emotion. I was clear headed, decisive – I wasn’t crazy. My movements became bigger. I became bigger.

I looked at the clock and gauged that I had about eighteen minutes before I had to host my call. I found a headlamp and shoved it over my messy hair to see in the dark. I put on the old garden gloves I’d almost pitched while packing the day before. And I put on my winter coat, though I would be sweating by the time I was done.

I found my way in the dark to the wood pile.

THE wood pile.

I knew the one he was referring to. Some of it had been chopped, and some of it was still in large, round pieces. And I carried each piece of that fucking wood pile through the yard, to the nearby cliff. And then I heaved each piece, one by one, over the edge. Towanda.

“Assess me on the fucking wood pile!” HEAVE!

“Go right ahead!” GUH!

“Hold my resources over my head and look what happens!” THROW!

“A few hundred dollars? Really? You want to control me based on a few hundred dollars?” HUH!

“Best money I have EVER spent!” GAHHHH!

I’m sure the neighbors heard me. I no longer cared about impressions.

Fifteen minutes. Ten. I had time. I’d be there. And I’d share my choice – this conscious and wild choice – with them, unashamed. The call was, after all, about women taking our power back through a process I call Sacred Remembering. I teach energy sovereignty. I have been doing the work of actively reclaiming my energy from trickster energies and outdated paradigms, but I’d be damned that I had let myself get into another situation of feminine depletion.

No. More.

It was exhilarating. I was standing up to this fucking trickster that had haunted me my entire life, I would no longer, not ever again, be controlled by it. The trickster that for my entire life would seek to control me with one thread of direct threat to my resources and then another. Through various men. Always a similar story.

A destroyer presence. A taker of my energy. A power-player over my resources. But it was getting weaker, clearly, because it was grasping for a few hundred dollars and controlling me over what, a wood pile? It was certainly losing it’s power. And I would ensure that this would be it’s last grab as far as I was EVER concerned.

I had felt it’s presence forever. The way it lived in men, in people in positions of power, in patriarchy itself.

The threat that was immanent in so many ways – behave, or lose. Conform, or lose. Obey, or lose. Listen to me, or lose.

“NO MORE!”

HEAVE!

NO MORE.

Period.

It was done when I threw the last, giant second of log over the edge.

No more.

I felt the trickster’s power die in that moment.

I’d been fighting this thing for so long, and I had sworn that before I left this place, I would figure this out. I had actually said that to him, when he said one day in October that he was done. I said, “Well, you can wait a damn minute until I figure things out.” And I also said, “I’ll go when the land tells me it’s time to go.”

The land and I weren’t finished yet. And I wasn’t leaving a victim. Not this time.

I would figure out why I could be loved by men and then just as easily depleted and discarded. I was somehow attracting and allowing it, yes. And, that trickster entity was not inside of that man when we started. It was like he was infiltrated and then began acting against me. I believe he was. It’s the dark arts of the Destroyer. Sending it’s dark forces into men when women get too big for their britches. These poor men don’t even see it coming, this ego-identification that makes them a pawn to destroy the feminine.

“Fuck her and her resources,” they say.

I had finally stood up to all the ways I had been taken advantage of, all the ways that my resources had been threatened in my life by a man invaded with the trickster.

And I was done.

I was sweating and panting. I was dirty and unpresentable. I was a wild woman. And I went in, sat down at the table, surrounded by boxes, and told the women what had just happened.

Because I wasn’t ashamed. I had just taken my power back.

Best money I had ever spent.

In the end, in the email he sent me with his arbitrary tally and justification of what he was reimbursing and why, he only deducted $50 for the wood pile. (Wink.)

Learn more about Heartland for women to move from depletion to replenishment at www.sarahpoet.com/heartland.