When Heartland came to me, I was living on a piece of land that I’d been invited to live on by a man I was in a relationship with.
When he told me (long story short) that I’d have to leave again, no warning, after asking me and my child to move in and “make a life with him,” I was completely blindsided, but also… not.
This sort of thing had happened before.
Investing in the masculine with my feminine resources, wanting to receive goodness and be in a conscious relationship, and hoping that through it all, my prosperity would actually amplify rather than life being harder for it.
But my prosperity was depleting. Overall, as I had invested myself into these relationships, my overall resources- including financial – were depleting.
I fell to my knees on this sacred piece of earth that I’d been living on for the last eight months. I had been working with this one area of the land that felt like a divine portal of energy, and I was learning through direct intuition and listening to the land the reality of the feminine currents in the earth, the ley lines, and how we all are rehabilitating the feminine on earth together.
And as I was in this awakening, my resources were attacked. It was no accident. As I was getting stronger in some ways, it was like some invisible force was going to make sure that I didn’t get too far ahead.
What this meant for my finances, my relationship with my son, my living situation, my ability to focus on my business – the overall cost of this situation and the depletion was going to set me back. One more thing to deal with. I felt like my usual strength was waning.
I fell to my knees on wet Earth and I think my forehead even laid on the ground. I was beyond being “over it.” I don’t remember exactly what my prayer was, but it was something like, “Why?” and from the depth of my soul.
And in that moment, droves of Grandmothers came forward. I had never seen anything like it. They showed up to answer the question so deep within me.
Some were indigenous people of the land, some were grandmothers of my own lineage, others were clearly star beings and had different body shapes, some were made of light. Some carried their crafts and others reached out to me.
They all came forward.
They cried, they wailed, they banged drums. They made sounds on behalf of the Earth and they gave me these messages. They said, “Remember, the Earth knows this depletion. The Earth knows what it is to be taken advantage of. Every day while living on this land, you listen to the machines in the nearby quarry, you feel the rape of the land. You know that there is a sacred transit of feminine energy running through this land and you know that the quarry is at war for it. You know this and you are not wrong.
“And She is tired. The Earth is tired. The feminine has been tired. We women know your tiredness. We women know the loss of resources to men, to the White Man and consumption, to this way of being that people have that is not sacred, is not the Holy way of being a man. We cry with you. We grieve with you. We know. We see you. Sister, we see you.”
They stood before me and acknowledged, with great empathy and solidarity, the ancient depletion of the feminine that I was experiencing in real time. In that moment, the acknowledgement was so deep.
They gave me Heartland:
They let me know that they were going to help me, but that I was also responsible for sharing this with others. They gave me 8 specific teachings, they called this “Heartland,” and for the last two and a half years, I have been gestating and integrating the Heartland into my life.
Or rather, I have been allowing for the integration of my life into Heartland. Because that’s really what the invitation is – to advance the lives of women beyond feminine depletion, to go to a place that is so inherently regenerative, and to learn that we can access this “place” all of the time.
Heartland is a codex for the New Earth. I don’t love using those words, because they sound so flashy, but truthfully, that is what Heartland is.
I’ve taught Heartland twice, over 8 weeks both times. This year, we will be slowing down this journey to truly activate the teachings at the cellular level and to allow for lives to truly advance. We meet twice a month for energetic alchemy and the teachings, and we stay connected in community between calls via our own Mighty Network.
Recently, I’ve been hearing from the Grandmothers again. They are visiting me, which is a humble and life-altering experience. They are our guides through this journey – out of the depletion of old-world, patriarchal energetics that deplete women’s resources, and into the space of the Regenerative Feminine – the Heartland.