About a year ago, I was standing at a pot-luck in a conversation with a man who is a local shaman.
We were talking about the “next level” of our soul’s path and whether or not we were making progress.
Honestly, at the time, I didn’t feel that I was making adequate progress. Things got hard there for a minute.
I was telling him how, when I first had made the huge leap from a steady paycheck to becoming an entrepreneur, I was almost magically financially supported.
My career in education ended sort of badly and abruptly, with that extra “nudge” us soul-folks know happens when we drag our feet, and when I learned that I was going to have to leave sooner than later, I heard a message out of the blue that said, “Go refinance your house right now.”
It was SO clear and loud that I went to the bank that day. I had my employer sign my income verification about 24 hours before it would have been too late, and as a result, I had a $45,000 cushion when I was pushed out the door and into “spiritual entrepreneurship.”
I told this local shaman that story, and I told him how now I didn’t seem to be getting large sums of $45,000 or anything even close to that, and he laughed and said, “Because now it’s up to you.”
I knew what he was talking about, but it’s taken me a bit longer to really embody it.
The person who we are when we make a big leap is someone incredible! And then, we have to keep leaping! Our faith has to stay strong!
Recently, I’m learning two of those “soul lessons,” which are connected, and so I thought I’d share with you.
ONE: With great soul potential comes great responsibility.
So you’re a light-worker, an intuitive, a mystic, an artist who channels… YOU ARE A VERY SPECIAL PERSON. Great.
Now that we recognize that, what are we going to do about it? I think this recognition takes all but a holy moment, but if you’re like me, you want the recognition to last and last.
Spirit/God was like, “Yeah girl! Leap! Here’s $45K!” but why, if I don’t advance on my soul journey, would God be like, “Here, just have some more and more and more until you decide to keep going for it.” That’s like a God trust fund, which doesn’t actually feel good.
We have to continue to be an energetic match for that which we want to receive.
I’m not who I was five years ago, so I can stop expecting Spirit to treat me like it did five years ago.
TWO: When we’re waiting on God, often God is waiting on us.
So obviously these go hand in hand.
Part two of this is that while we’re waiting around for God to drop in another $45K, all pouty about why it’s not happening like that, we’re actually playing smaller than God knows that we are.
(When I say God, I’m saying Mother Father God, the 12D+ Unity force of Creation, btw.)
Recently I realized that I felt a wee bit abandoned by this Creational force. And then I realized, “Oh, God’s waiting on me to grow up and be the version of me that I now actually am.”
I was on this communal prayer call, and I thought, “I’m going to speak up for my prayer. Dang it – I’m going to do it. I never just say what I need. Here I go. I’m doing it!”
And then what happened was that it wasn’t spoken by the folks holding the call, which was *perfect* and hilarious. I went for a walk in the woods afterwards and was questioning God, a little sulky, and the message was, “Because you don’t need that! Every ball is in your court, Sarah! We’re waiting on you.”
That’s a reality check for you!
When it’s not happening for you, it may be because you are not actually being all you were sent here on Earth to be.
So, let’s check our inner victim and our inner pouty-pants, and let’s ask ourselves “Given who I am and the mission my soul is on in this lifetime, what is mine to do in this moment?”
And then we do it. Without the hand-hold, we do it. We leap into our next soul assignment, our next version of who we are meant to be and embody.
We acknowledge the responsibility of being all we came to be. And the beautiful, incredible opportunity to actually be it.
Spirit will meet us there, no question.
To the leap!
In love,
Sarah
